“It’s not you, It’s me”

my my my… isn’t that a common line for guys to reject girls?

“oh baby.. i can’t continue being in this relationship any longer”

“but why?? what did i do wrong?”

“oh baby, it’s not you it’s me“

there was one guy who was going after me, not exactly my typical type. although he claims that he is wealthy and all…but who am i kidding? without Looks… one can only go so far and i admit i am SHALLOW, at least i am not a GOLD DIGGER. Back to my Story, this dude was courting me, showering me with gifts ( something i am not used to ), dinners, paid for everything. well of course i felt like the queen, but that wasn’t enough for me. It can never be enough. He told me he liked me, then i was stunned.. so should i say, i ACTED stunned. Then i blurt out The Ultimate Sentence : i can’t get into a relationship. it’s not you. it’s me.

But i guess that is the easiest way to brush off a person, and hoping that he/she doesn’t know that this is the lamest rejection line ever!

Weeks later, i bumped into him on the streets…he came up to me and told me that I was the first girl in his entire life that ever rejected him, and worst still… i used the ultimate reject line that guys have been using it over the decades! and they actually thought that girls wouldnt use it against them. well..tough luck!

it’s not you, it’s just me..

men, love them or hate them?

well. it’s been a while since i last updated my sex life.

It has been pretty interesting tho.. my list of guys has to be updated again.

Men, love them of hate them? i’ve been dating a lot of guys lately…but recently, one particular guy i have been seeing for the past few months, has been really nice towards me. or should i say, i’ve actually started feeling comfortable around him. he is not my typical type, but somehow.. there’s something in him that makes me laugh every time we go out. slept with him few nights back, he was hungry for it. surprisingly, Sex was Good. I’ve not had a good one for along time. He asked me: “when was your last time?” Obviously not with u.. i had one just last week… but of course i did not say that.. i answered :” ohh.. my last time was with you.”

I’m such a Liar.. so are most of the guys i slept with. ” You are the only one i’m seeing right now” <– oh please.. you actually think i believe that?! you must be kidding me. I think i’m starting to think and talk like a guy. i say what they want to hear.. i do what makes them happy…. what is a little white lie if i could make them feel like they are on top of the world? I realize that the things guys once told me when i was still naive and has no clue in this are all lies, or at least 80% lies. It’s so easy to lie.. even i do that. Most common lie..” do u miss me?” me: “yea.. of course i do..” I swear, if i were to be Pinocchio, my nose would have grown so long that it’ll hit the bottom of the ocean!

However, among all of my “friends with benefits” i prefer this dude- Town Boy. at least he makes me feel special whenever i want to.

He,  my friends… has a 7 yrs girl friend. i tried to stay away from these kind of men. but somehow i’m drawn to them, or vice versa… it never ends.

when one is not enough…

It is SCREAMING in my head..! nothing is ever enough. It came to a point in my life that it makes me wonder. Is it better to be the GF he cheats on but goes home to? Or the other girl he has an affair with but flourishes you with gift & compliments? Nothing is ever enough is it?

He once said, he wanted both! He is greedy. He loves his long time GF, but he likes me a lot! What was that suppose to mean? “I want to take care both” is what he said!

Well basically, I don’t know whether it is the VIBES that I am sending out? Or do I produce some kind of pheromones that attracts these kinds of men!

Maybe Karma will hit me one day. But I sure hope it won’t! That is why I am abstaining myself from SEX! It isn’t easy I must say… with all the temptations around me. I love being single, or should I say… I am afraid of committing myself to a particular person. Because I know what it is like outside. I am the OTHER GIRL that your BF is seeing. It is scary but it’s true.

Is there such thing as Loving 2 person at one time? It’s already hard enough to love ONE person, let alone 2?!

home on a saturday night

i am actually at home on a Saturday night, didn’t go out and join the guys tonight.. feeling kind of lazy, going through the make up, dress up thing,

Nothing much to do.. had a lazy day. Did some spring cleaning though!! i still can’t think of anything to revamp this blog. Any ideas??

I am tempted to call up Tate ( he has a Gf by the way), but i must say.. he is a good fuck. well at least he tries to make me happy.. some guys only care for themselves, and sex usually ends up me having to fake an orgasm! how sad.. But Tate is busy tonight, he is out with his friends. He did message me and asked me out though… but i am just not in the mood to socialize. I just need someone to hug me to sleep…. that’s all…

putting my toughts into visuals

okay… i am trying to RE-VAMP this page.. so gimme some time to vamp it up….

On the other hand… it’s a weekend nite, i’m waiting for my mobile phone to ring… actually i have an invitation to go out and party with the gang. but i am just too lazy to doll up and head out. i am deprived of sex, the last one i had was BAD. so i have no intention to have it with him again… bygones.

Since i am kinda abstaining myself from having sex. i am not going to call my usual fuck buddies. i need new ones..or should i say.. i need to behave myself more…